Suspects.

In the last year, we have had suspected asthma, suspected epilepsy, suspected need for root canal treatment, suspected multiple sclerosis suspected broken collar bone, and suspected appendicitis.

Waiting rooms have become the bane of my existence. I am getting very used to reading old trashy magazines and finishing crosswords that strangers have started, while listening out for the correct name to be called.

So far this year we have had an ambulance to our house on 4 occasions. And Paige has been picked up from my parents house by an ambulance. One of them earlier this evening, in fact about 25 minutes ago. To take my husband BACK to hospital with a second bought of suspected appendicitis. Why they didn't whip it out the first time I don't understand. He was in hospital for three days a few weeks back and he was released after they starved him for two days and then sent home.

I am dying for a smoke right now. 7 days smoke free, what a joke. If the bloody shit would stop coming long enough for me to take a breath I think it would be easier. What an ironic choice of words. TAKE A BREATH........... BREATH IN TOXIC FUMES FROM YOUR TRUSTY LITTLE DEATH STICK.

Mothers little helper.

Black black few days. Few months. I just need to see some kind of light at the end of this health tunnel, even a teeny tiny speck of dust as small as the most distant star would do. Just SOMETHING!

And its not like theres anything really wrong, its all SUSPECTED its like lets play with this family for awhile, just roll them about in the sand and see how many scratches they can take before they all break into a hundred tiny pieces.

SUSPECTED epilepsy, so Paige has had Febrile Convulsions (fever fits) once or twice a year since she was a baby, but she is 7 now and was meant to grow out of them by 5, but since shes still having them, she is tested for seizure disorders.

SUSPECTED asthma, both the twins had a fairly major chest infection earlier in the year. They both had inhalers and "if symptoms persist see your doctor" apparently they could both develop asthma. So its a waiting game.

SUSPECTED MS Don had massive muscle weakness in his right arm and tremors, after a battery of tests they were unable to conclude anything, and the symptoms subsided.

SUSPECTED need for root canal treatment. Paige again. Refered by the dental nurse for a hole in an adult tooth, and after seeing 3 different dentists (first one was horrible, second one was ill-equiped to deal with children, 3rd was great but he was unable to perform a filling as the local anaesthetic didn't work) we were referred to the only paediatric dentist in Auckland, who was expensive, we were looking at up to 2500-3000 dollars for treatment. She was however fantastic, and has referred us to the hospital where she will be put under general and her tooth will be removed, through public health. She does by the way brush her teeth well every day, but this tooth grew in "soft" and under formed, and susceptible to cavities.

SUSPECTED collar bone break. Recent, Annabelle just started screaming and wouldn't stop, inspection at the local A+E proved she had injured her shoulder, but xrays did not show any breaks. Shes better now.

Nothing concrete, its all suspected. At some point a few answers would be good. Ok Universe? Answers please!

Slightly over it. Slightly fed up. Kinda ready to kick something. I won't, but I want to.

The only conclusion that I can really come to is "no news is good news" if they are not finding anything. Then hopefully there is nothing there. But this is all going to end soon isn't it?

xx The Ramblings of Another Mother